Crazy, stupid love.
I’m a strong person. I really am. At least, that is what people think of me. The people I work with. Most of my friends. They see me as a woman who has inner strength. Unshakeable calm, level headedness.
Indeed, very little at work can shake me. I get stressed and overwhelmed but I hardly show it. I rarely cry infront of people and when I do, they get awkward around me and feel embarrassed almost; to see this sliver of vulnerability I carelessly let slip through the hairline fracture my soul occasionally cracks.
I am warm clay in his hands. I’ve had my heart broken before and had sworn never to let anyone else get close enough to hurt me that way again. But with him, I can hold no fort. It is difficult when it is your soulmate that you have married. He sees through me like I see through him and it is precisely because of this that he has the power to hurt me, pushing and twisting a cleaving knife through my heart and he, only he has the power, to lift me up with his love and allow me to soar through the skies, with open wings. He has very little idea just how much power he wields over me. It is hard to explain in words. I am intensely vulnerable in his hands. A life without him will be a nightmare.
Things have been rough. We are one month shy of our one year wedding anniversary.
Can you believe that?
My best friend, my lover, my husband.
It is difficult to forget the very first time we met outside a bookstore. He frightened me off with his quirkiness. My heart was freshly shattered and I wasn’t ready. The next time we met, things were different. I couldn’t bear to leave his side. I knew.
We met again today and how handsome he looked. So beautiful, with his beautiful hands. Things hardly change years later. As we settled into the theater seats, he spilt his entire cup of Coke. ;) But it’s okay, I shared my Coke Zero with him. :P
He got me pretty little trinkets for Teachers’ Day and then spent some time with my parents and then sent me home. It was swooning love all over again. I can never stop loving him madly – that’s the only way I know how to love.
I love you sweetheart, thank you for loving me.
P.S.: We watched Crazy, Stupid Love today. Hence, the title. :)
